new life!!:)

2009 its all over..
bt..
2010 its also gonna to over too..
bt i love 2010
in this new year..
learn many new things n new friends..
new teachers
new friends
everything new!!
haha..
n d most important things is i finially give up on loving her...
i forget her le..
i thk tis is d bez things..
i learn hw to leave it away..
gif her freedom..
give her everything..
bt d bad things cum too..
haih..
PMR...
its cumming..
so fast..
n i dun have any time to prepare for d PMR..
n i dun have d nood to prepare too..
so unluckily...
bt these few month..
i love a gal again..-.-
haih..
love someone is so difficult..
being love by someone is more easier than love a ppl...
when i feel tat i fell in love towards her...
i'm gonna crazy..
bcos i thk tats impossible for me to love her..
tats impossible...
ages...
she is older than me..
d prob is nt older than me 1 or 2 years...
is more than tat number...
tats y i say its impossible..
diff world..
hw to love each other???
haih..
i cnt believe tat i reali fell in love towards her..
reali unbelieveable..
bt i reali love her...
haih..
i thk its gonna be ok...
bcos i dun mind...
i hope she wont mind too.

sry...

sry to u...

i reali cnt controll myself ler...

i fell in love towards u ler...

bt i tried to forget u...

bt i reali cnt...

i tried stop finding u every 2nd recess...

bt i cnt...

i cnt concentrate on doing anything if i dint c ur face...

event cnt slp gud at nite...

i knw i'm not suppose to love u...

bt reali gt many reason to love u...

many ppl thinks tat ppl fat is not leng luii...

bt to me...

its ok my gf to be fat...

i dun mind...

bt d more important things is...

she care abt me...

these few days when i saw her...

i feel hapi...

bt dono y...

i act i'm vry sad when i go find her...

n i jz wan to stay there longer...

bt dono y when i saw her...

then feel like someone warning me not to stay too long time thr...

so i go bak to my class by forcing...

feel sad...

when i reach my class i cnt stop miss her...

i jz sit on my place n start miss her till tchr cum in to d class...

wat happen to me...

actually...

i dun like carmen...

bt i dono y i wan to go near to her...

its complicated....

jz wana to say sry to her...

cnt controll myself to stop loving her...

dissapointed...

feel dissapointed to my parents...

i cant feel tat ur r worrying me....

i go out wif u two...

like i c two ppl standing infront of me...

sienz...

i knw tis year PMR...

bt i'm a human oso...

nid to go out play wif friends de...

lolz...

i 15 years old edi la...

every day say tis say tat...

dont feel boring...

summore say me online go c sex tape,do sumthing unnessery...bla bla bla...

lolz...

pls la...

i online onli chatting n facebook...

n i lock my room door cos my baby brother is vry kacao...

then whr ur think to??

sex tape??

can think sumthing positive??

i reali cant take it...

jz nid some time...

i dint go out wif friends once a week...

is long time once...

like tis oso cant...

wan watch movie wif friends oso cannot...

then wat can i do??

every day stay at home??

i go gai gai wif friends 4th time already...

bt i gt take 1sen from u all a not??

all my own money...

i earn all those money jz hope can go out wif friends...

i dint eat every day in skol??

for wat??

jz hope can earn more money to go out play wif friends...

ur think tat all my friends r bad??

u can go ask skol tchr...

do u all knw y i change so much...

jz because of u all...

every day not say me watch sex tape then say me waste money...

ei i save those myself de lo...

before i buy tat i think before 4to 5 times de lo...

call ur brg me go buy pen onli...

then say laz week not cum before mehh??

u sot liao ah??

laz week??

i dint go thr for almost 1 month already lo...

until now...

my pen all no ink already i oso dint call u brg me go buy pen...

i borrow my friends pen to use...

sumtimes borrow joon tat de pen for whole week...

tats reali enough for me...

i cant take it anymore ler...

if u all continue like tat...

i reali will plan 离家出走de lo...

every day jz will say bad things abt me...

say me slp late...

lolz...

h u knw??

i slp early u knw??

i slp late then u knw...

bt u wond knw i slp early...

i prepare my test muz let u all knw??

i go study u all will knw??

see me playing computer then scold here scold there...

fine!!

feel annoying...

n i dono hw to becum ur son...

becum an orphan i think will feel more better...

if now i can work myself i reali dun think will cum home liao...

cos home not like home not warm at all...

feel like other ppl's home more worm...

they can live happily...

tell joke to each other...

bt my hse lehh??

1030pm...

all slp...

before 1030pm lehh??

some go slp...some watch tv...some go see his fish...some go do their things...

almost no ppl in d living room...

jz a nanny sitting there watch tv...

i tried to sit at d living room...

bt no other ppl will be thr...

so i jz stay in my room chatting wif my friends...

n i dint gt relation ship wif a girl...n now de age love a girl is normal...

dun tell me tat on tis age u dint love a ppl before...

tats imposible...exept u r an alien...

bak to living thr...enough for this ler...cant take it anymore...

exept 9pm dad will sit thr watch news...

then all go slp...

lolz...

feel sien when i sit on d living room...

i slp every time when i sit there...

haiks...

hope they will knw wat i reali wan...

say so much oso no use...

the laz things i wan to say is...

other ppl's family make me feel hapi n wan to join them...

tats i wan to tell u all...

你是我从一月暗恋的人

初二开学那天我进班第一眼就看见你了...
没想到....我一看见你就爱上你了....
也许是缘分吧...
不久后我被一个人看穿了...
他知道我喜欢你...但是没出声
直到最近...他才问我这一道问题....
当时我不知真么回答他....
但是算了吧...他是我唯一信任的人所以我就告诉了他.....
直到现在我觉得那恶人因该知道我在讲她....
但是接受还是不接受都没关系只要你开心就好.....
我会永远保护你的.....
也许你不知道我在讲你....
但是我已经暗示你了...
如果你还是不明白的话.....
那我也没办法.....
每冯我一看到你我就会觉得开心.....
因为你敏捷的动作太吸引我了.....
考试时我想为你嘉油但是我没勇气....
所以我选择了告诉你....
我爱你....

我与父母

其实玩电脑有罪吗？？
玩电脑会荒废学业吗？？
难道有压力时不可以玩电脑来解压吗？？
读了书过后玩电脑因该可以吧？？
但是为什么我不可以？？
难道在房间里面读书一定要让你看到才算读书吗？？
读书一定要让人看到的吗！！
真得很不明白，
为什么读书要让你看到才算读书呢？？
难道你怕我骗你？？
还是你不信任我？？
真得搞不清楚你们的想法，
在你面前读书就讲不要装读书！！
到底你们在想什么的？？
玩电脑都不给，
别人晚到不睡觉都可以甚至是我的表妹！！
他们的成绩还很好！！
这就是证明！！
玩电脑不会荒废学业的！！
有时让你们骂了后，
我就会所他们一般见识所以不跟他们吵来安慰自己，
用这种话来讲自己的父母很不好的！！
但是我真得没办法呀！！
不讲有很生气，
讲了又觉得自己的父母很没用。
我真得不知道要怎样跟他们解释呀！！
真得很烦啊！！
真想找些可以解压的东西呀！！

爱.......

到底爱是什么呢？？
是你爱对方，对方又爱你吗？？
还是为了对方而牺牲才叫爱呢？？
但是为了爱而牺牲值得吗？？
为了爱而改变一切值得吗？？
难道爱的魔力有酱厉害吗？？
为了爱而去牺牲和改变，
那没有了爱就不幸福吗？？
难道幸福一定要有爱吗？？
现在我才觉得，
爱的魔力真的非常的利害！！
它可以使一个人改变一切，
甚至他的未来！！
有些人为了爱而去自杀，
为了爱去自杀值得吗？？
为了爱付出一切值得吗！！
为了爱而染上了犹豫症，
为了爱染上了疾病，
值得吗？？
难道没了爱会死吗？？
不会吧？
但是缺乏了爱会让人心理不平衡
爱对我来说，
他是一种毒品！！
因为她会让人去自杀，去改变自己的美好前途等等.....
但是一但上瘾了就很难解掉
但是又要怎样预防呢？？
haizz......
这样东西让我感觉到非常烦恼阿......
那到底有什么方法去解决呢？？
真的很烦恼阿......

派成绩单~~

haizz~~
明天就要拿成绩单了！！
不知道明天老师会怎样讲我的坏话？？
虽然我不是很坏。。。
但是在班上我也算是很坏了。。。
希望老师不会乱讲我的坏话。。
如果是酱。。。
我就会很感谢他！！
如果没有讲过我的坏话就会拍她马屁~~
haizz希望他不会讲我坏话就够了~~=）