你是我从一月暗恋的人

初二开学那天我进班第一眼就看见你了...
没想到....我一看见你就爱上你了....
也许是缘分吧...
不久后我被一个人看穿了...
他知道我喜欢你...但是没出声
直到最近...他才问我这一道问题....
当时我不知真么回答他....
但是算了吧...他是我唯一信任的人所以我就告诉了他.....
直到现在我觉得那恶人因该知道我在讲她....
但是接受还是不接受都没关系只要你开心就好.....
我会永远保护你的.....
也许你不知道我在讲你....
但是我已经暗示你了...
如果你还是不明白的话.....
那我也没办法.....
每冯我一看到你我就会觉得开心.....
因为你敏捷的动作太吸引我了.....
考试时我想为你嘉油但是我没勇气....
所以我选择了告诉你....
我爱你....

我与父母

其实玩电脑有罪吗？？
玩电脑会荒废学业吗？？
难道有压力时不可以玩电脑来解压吗？？
读了书过后玩电脑因该可以吧？？
但是为什么我不可以？？
难道在房间里面读书一定要让你看到才算读书吗？？
读书一定要让人看到的吗！！
真得很不明白，
为什么读书要让你看到才算读书呢？？
难道你怕我骗你？？
还是你不信任我？？
真得搞不清楚你们的想法，
在你面前读书就讲不要装读书！！
到底你们在想什么的？？
玩电脑都不给，
别人晚到不睡觉都可以甚至是我的表妹！！
他们的成绩还很好！！
这就是证明！！
玩电脑不会荒废学业的！！
有时让你们骂了后，
我就会所他们一般见识所以不跟他们吵来安慰自己，
用这种话来讲自己的父母很不好的！！
但是我真得没办法呀！！
不讲有很生气，
讲了又觉得自己的父母很没用。
我真得不知道要怎样跟他们解释呀！！
真得很烦啊！！
真想找些可以解压的东西呀！！

爱.......

到底爱是什么呢？？
是你爱对方，对方又爱你吗？？
还是为了对方而牺牲才叫爱呢？？
但是为了爱而牺牲值得吗？？
为了爱而改变一切值得吗？？
难道爱的魔力有酱厉害吗？？
为了爱而去牺牲和改变，
那没有了爱就不幸福吗？？
难道幸福一定要有爱吗？？
现在我才觉得，
爱的魔力真的非常的利害！！
它可以使一个人改变一切，
甚至他的未来！！
有些人为了爱而去自杀，
为了爱去自杀值得吗？？
为了爱付出一切值得吗！！
为了爱而染上了犹豫症，
为了爱染上了疾病，
值得吗？？
难道没了爱会死吗？？
不会吧？
但是缺乏了爱会让人心理不平衡
爱对我来说，
他是一种毒品！！
因为她会让人去自杀，去改变自己的美好前途等等.....
但是一但上瘾了就很难解掉
但是又要怎样预防呢？？
haizz......
这样东西让我感觉到非常烦恼阿......
那到底有什么方法去解决呢？？
真的很烦恼阿......

派成绩单~~

haizz~~
明天就要拿成绩单了！！
不知道明天老师会怎样讲我的坏话？？
虽然我不是很坏。。。
但是在班上我也算是很坏了。。。
希望老师不会乱讲我的坏话。。
如果是酱。。。
我就会很感谢他！！
如果没有讲过我的坏话就会拍她马屁~~
haizz希望他不会讲我坏话就够了~~=）

猪流感

今天是我最担心的一天，
因为报纸今天写州立华小有猪流感（也就是我的母校），
刚好前两天我又回学校找我的老师，
在那时，我还没生病但是回家后我就开始发烧了，
就这样我又不敢告诉我的父母，
我就只好找人来诉苦，
酱好除了我的父母我最信任的老师就是我的班主任，
然后我就sms告诉她我生病了，
他就告诉我叫我吃药，
我就回他我们去看医生拿来的药呢？？
他就说为什么不去看医生？？
我就说我不敢告诉我的父母，
他说我无论如何都要去看医生，
如果我不幸染上了猪流感那怎么办？？
就在这个时候他把我要告诉他的东西都说出来了，
然后我就想告诉他这件实事的时候他突然告诉我他要睡觉了，
我也没办法，
没可能特地叫她听我讲完他，
所以我就没讲了，
当天晚上我就到了三点凌晨才睡得着。。
haizz这次的猪流感病毒真的给了全世界的人不少烦恼。
真是个大灾难！！

being loved and loved a person

Well, I left my blog so long and let it being lonely here. Sorry to you my dear blog. ‘What is love? What is marriage?’ would be my topic today. What really frightened me was love isn’t that eternal as we thought of. It can be so fragile if you are not careful enough. What I’ve gone through in these two years was I’ve tried to love someone. I felt that it was a great thing when you can be with your loved ones. However, I did notice that loving someone is also suffering. What sort of suffering? If you were girl, I’m sure you will understand why I said so. I loved him but I did know I loved him more than he did. He hurt me more than he cheered me up. I was in a mess and sometimes was emotionally pressured by his characters. What I did seem to be wrong to him. What I did seem to be not enough to show that I love him. I tried my best to cheer him up but I failed. I even did things I don’t like to cheer him up. I was totally changed and I found my characteristics at that time were weird sometimes but not at all. It’s been a hard time for me to be together with him. If he were to cheer me up is absolutely in his finger tip. Most of the time he won’t be with me, once he gets me out for a walk, I would and could smile and mumbling in the whole week that he actually brought me for a walk. Isn’t this sound stupid? Even my ever first valentine, I could be smiling the whole day just because he spent the entire day with me and without receiving even a card from him. I could just be so … Can I say I was ‘naive’? Perhaps I was… After sometime, I really struggled from the period I broke up with him. I struggled and struggled, I didn’t even know what I can do. I was hoping everyday that he might have turn back to me one day. I was wrong and totally defeated by him. I never have had these experiences. Until one day, I met this guy, who has become my current boyfriend, I was still in dilemma. I didn’t know whether at that time was a proper time for me to start a relationship with him or not just because I still couldn’t leave my ex out of mind. I was feeling pressured at that time. After couple of months, I realised something. I really saw his love. I saw his kindness, I saw his caring. I was really touched by him. I was once sick at night. It was about 3 o’clock in the morning. I supposed to have asked my parents or siblings for help but I just dare not to do so. I called him up. He was in his sleep at that time, he was frightened when I told him I was suffering because of sickness. Never he thought of the time and the distance he has to travel to my house, he just said, ‘ wait for me, I’ll reach in the fastest moment!’ In half an hour, he reached and he picked me up to go for a 24-hour clinic. In the journey to the clinic he asked for my condition and kept telling me that ‘we will reach the clinic in just a moment!’ He looked more worried than I myself. He went to get some bread for me and later on he fed me with my medicines. In a sudden, I felt so sorry to him. I was thinking whether I should continue the relationship with him, this is what I thought in the first couple of months. I was so sorry to him after that incident. I tried to love him as I can. Yet, I know I am still not loving him like he does. I will try my best. I realise now that being loved is much easier, much happier and much joy that we get. I never been so care by anyone even my parents. He really takes care of me in every specific thing I do, I like and my don’ts. I live happier now. No suffering, but enjoying. Get a person who loves us more than we do, surely you will live easier life and earn a happier smile. I like these feelings. I am addicted with being loved. Aren’t you hoping the same?

我的可爱班主任~~=）

上了初二，就会换新的班主任，
我都不董我是好运还是不好运，
我的班主任跟别的有点不同，
不同点是，
每个班主任一进班就会摆出一幅严肃的样子，
但是他一进班就对着坐在我旁边的人笑（陈子佟），
我觉得很奇怪，
就问了起来，
到底他们是什么关系？？
原来他们是xx关系，
当子佟告诉我后，
他就说别告诉别人，
所以这个秘密到现在还没有人懂，
对了说回我的班主任，
他是一位不算善良的老师，
但是又不是一位邪恶的老师，
他的样子很可爱，
因为她肥肥的所以很可爱，
但是太肥又不可爱，
所以我有时会叫他少吃东西，
以免变得更肥~~=）
他的体形虽然是比一般人特别矮矮小小（但是我也高不了去那里~~）
所以很容易认出来，
找他也容易（特点）
虽然我知道他很多私人的东西，
但是在这里.....
我不方便讲，
加上我不想出卖我的可爱班主任
如果想知道就自己猜（唯一的方法）

我的成绩

我的成绩终于有进步了!!(很开心）
但是还是有些不及格（读不完）
年中考即将到来所以我要开始准备年中考了！！！
希望这次的年中考可以达到我自己所设的目标！！（gambateh)
为了不让自己失望所以我选择了努力读书但是不会太过火
希望这次的年中考可以达到我自己的目标！！